this year has been a topsy-turvy emotional, physical and psychological roller-coaster ride for him. he broke up with his first love, on the 2nd of january, the 13th month of their bittersweet relationship. he felt lousy and he felt angry. 13 months is a long time. he got drunk that day... half a bottle of cognac undiluted. the feeling was terrible. major headache, burnt throat, massive void in his heart. he got over it in 2 months, and got to know a lass from track. that's actually the reason he joined track. she became the second girl to be in his life on valentine's day. there was hope and a lot of promises in the relationship, but he ruined it all in one fell stroke. how and why, he doesn't know. he simply wasn't being himself that day. there was something alien bout him then. it alarmed him that he could have a heart that's colder than steel. he tried to disguise it and he won't admit it, but it affected him. his grades plummet, from E to F grade. this is the trough of his life he thought. things began to look up for him. somewhere in may, he fell in love again, and with another track girl, again. but like the 'loop the loop', things did not stay good for long. he never knew if she was interested. she never said. he didn't know what to do, and it seemed to him that she liked someone else then, so he left and tried to forget her. but you see, he couldn't. his life was still in a ditch. until now. he has decided to make amends, to start afresh. time may be against him, but he'll not give up without a fight. he may not be able to clear his prelims, but he'll do his best for a levels. his sad life ends here. like the phoenix, he'll rise from the ashes to greater heights. for his love life, his question to her in june still stands, and it is still unanswered. he is still waiting. waiting for her to decide if she wants to leave more footprints in his heart.