whatever lah huh, whatever.....

irritating!!!!!!

2004-09-30T19:03:00.000+08:00

some things are just damn irritating... things like pple ruining your frenster profile by deleting everything there and writing some fictitious reputation harming boliao stuff... urgh... let me find out who that person is and i swear i'll rip him into bits and pieces... i mean it... i just received my prelims results and i'm ultra ultra super stressed out ready... and this shit has to happen... good, i need to relieve stress...

need for speed underground rules!!! i'm at race 67 now... way to go man... just another 44 races to go before i complete it, but i guess i'll only play again after my a levels... haha... shit man... i wonder if can modify the cars in singapore... both performance wise and visual wise... i'll make my integra type R look like the meanest thing in the streets man... haha... when i get enough money to buy one, that is...

kitty invaded!!!! *looks upwards with pained expression and points at the sky* haha... my classic *doh! expression... oh well... i gotta go home and study ready... kitty's not in school... good the bye pple...

daps

2004-09-29T13:28:00.000+08:00

I INVADEDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
just to say sth stupid. :D
hi keongggggggggggggggggggg.
i told you. haha.

you need chemistry...

2004-09-24T16:18:00.000+08:00

for all who study chemistry... the lighter moments:

A small piece of sodium which lived in a testube fell
in love with a Bunsen burner. "Bunsen! my flame! I
melt whenever I see you" said the sodium. The bunsen
burner replied :"It's just a phase you're going
through".
---
A neutron walks into a bar; he asks the bartender: "
How much for a beer?" The bartender looks at him and
says: "For you, it's no charge".
---
Why did the white bear dissolve in water?
Because it was polar.
---
What do you call a tooth in a glass of water?
A one molar solution.
---
What do dipoles say in passing?
Have you got a moment?
---
Why does hamburger have lower energy than steak?
Because it's in the ground state.
---
What do you do with a dead chemist?
Barium (bury them...just in case u dun get it:D)
---
What weapon can you make from the elements potassium,
nickel, Iodine and iron?
A KNIFe.
---
Why do chemists like nitrates so much?
They're cheaper than day rates.
---
What did one titration tell the other?
Let's meet at the endpoint.
---
Why are chemists great for solving problems?
They have all the solutions.
---
Do you know what happened to the chemist who was
reading a book about Helium?
He just couldn't put it down.
---
Why do chemistry professors like to teach about
ammonia?
Because it's basic stuff.
---
What is a cation afraid of?
A dogion
---
What did the match tell the flame?
Baby, you make me lose my head.
---
Why did the ice cube get divorced?
His wife said he was too cold.
---
Why did Carbon marry Hydrogen?
They bonded well from the minute they met.
---
What kind of ghosts haunt chemistry faculties?
Methylated spirits.
---
If H20 is water what is H204?
Drinking, bathing, washing, swimming. . .
---
A psychotic chemist came home from work and had a big
fight with his wife. In the heat of the moment, he
grabbed a bottle of some lethal chemical substance and
forced her to drink it while he screamed: " Die Ethyl,
die". The wife dropped dead on the floor and the
neighbors who were watching the scene, decided to call
the police. The policemen arrived and arrested the
chemist. One of them asked: Was there any reason for
you to kill your wife? The chemist replied: " There
was no chemistry between us. We never bonded well
although we tried.In the compound where we lived, our
temperaments collided. She always responded negatively
to my comments. Our relationship was unstable. There
was no possible solution. She had an attitude and I
was explosive. Finally, I overreacted. But now I'm
glad it's over. I'm in equilibrium again.I will feel
free even behind the irons."
---
A group of organic molecules were having a party, when
a group of robbers broke into the room and stole all
of the guests joules.A tall, strong man, armed with a
machine gun came into the room and killed the robbers
one by one.The guests were very grateful to this man,
and they wanted to know who he was. He replied: My
name is BOND, Covalent Bond.
---
According to a chemist, why is the world so diverse?
Because it's made up of alkynes of people.

addicted

2004-09-24T14:08:00.000+08:00

shit... i think i'm addicted to need for speed underground... i need to own an xbox!!!!! i want to play doa beach volleyball and need for speed underground!!!

rare blog opportunity...

2004-09-24T13:34:00.000+08:00

alright, i just submitted an email to the army pple asking for a transfer to commandos... everybody hold hands and pray like you never did for me please... it means a lot to me... A LOT...

PRELIMS OVER!!!

2004-09-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

yay!!! finally the prelims are over... but i'm not really that happy... prelim has shown me that i am not prepared for the a levels, so from now on, i'll put in double or even triple effort... sorry pple, i can't really update my blog much cos MY MODEM IS DOWN!!! D-O-W-N!!! heh heh heh... anyway, i've uploaded another 6 photos... can be seen in numero duo... any comments jus let me know ho... wahkahkahkahah...

story

2004-09-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

just two days ago, i had a sms session with someone who was once special to me... apparently, she's not angry with me anymore and has found a new life somewhere... what i did to her, is something that i won't ever do again... i have yet to forgive myself for throwing everything away... the possibilities and the promises... it was a first and last time i'll do something like that... i swear and vow to God... anyway, after that session, i was inspired to write a story... here goes....

Disclaimer: this story is non-fictitious and any resemblence in plot or charater to any events or persons is clearly intended and purely uncoincidental... read on...

Him.

this year has been a topsy-turvy emotional, physical and psychological roller-coaster ride for him. he broke up with his first love, on the 2nd of january, the 13th month of their bittersweet relationship. he felt lousy and he felt angry. 13 months is a long time. he got drunk that day... half a bottle of cognac undiluted. the feeling was terrible. major headache, burnt throat, massive void in his heart. he got over it in 2 months, and got to know a lass from track. that's actually the reason he joined track. she became the second girl to be in his life on valentine's day. there was hope and a lot of promises in the relationship, but he ruined it all in one fell stroke. how and why, he doesn't know. he simply wasn't being himself that day. there was something alien bout him then. it alarmed him that he could have a heart that's colder than steel. he tried to disguise it and he won't admit it, but it affected him. his grades plummet, from E to F grade. this is the trough of his life he thought. things began to look up for him. somewhere in may, he fell in love again, and with another track girl, again. but like the 'loop the loop', things did not stay good for long. he never knew if she was interested. she never said. he didn't know what to do, and it seemed to him that she liked someone else then, so he left and tried to forget her. but you see, he couldn't. his life was still in a ditch. until now. he has decided to make amends, to start afresh. time may be against him, but he'll not give up without a fight. he may not be able to clear his prelims, but he'll do his best for a levels. his sad life ends here. like the phoenix, he'll rise from the ashes to greater heights. for his love life, his question to her in june still stands, and it is still unanswered. he is still waiting. waiting for her to decide if she wants to leave more footprints in his heart.

2004-09-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

sorry guys, i haven't been blogging recently... my modem's down... and busy with exams too... i'll blog when possible yah? so sorry... oh yah, if you happen to see any girl who looks like kasumi from DOA beach volleyball with the same fantastic figure and the cute face, please let me know k? kasumi's so kawaii!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha......

it's been long

2004-09-08T13:02:00.000+08:00

Part 1:

it's been a very long while since i blogged... and many things hae happened during these few days of fun and terror... firstly, i shaved my head!!! (at kitty's insistence though) stupid bet we made... haha.... that was sheer terror man... seeing the barber with the razor shavor... he said he cut no.4 blade for me... but it's still damn short! damn! i miss my long hair... well, maybe not... but i certainly miss having hair to style... haha....

army open house 04 was great... better than 02 by lots man... in fact, it's so good i went twice... woo! haha... the first time i went was with toh, run jian, sebestian and benji!!! haha... we played the urban warfare thingy... toh kept lamenting that he died 4 times... i didn't die at all... cos i was playing the role of a sniper... shot away all 25rounds i had and made sure that every shot counted... the sar21 is damn good a rifle... low recoil, high accuracy, feels weightless... haha... after that, we went to try some army rations... i must say that army rations aren't really that bad... of course, it can't beat your hawker food and stuffs, but it's actually quite good considering where you'll be eating them at... after the battlefield 'buffet', we went to play the SOF's stall... some hostage rescue thingy... i clocked the fastest time amongst all of us... haha... clocked 29 seconds... but there was a screw up at first... haha... "IA!! IA!! NO FEEDING!!" haha... the bullet wasn't stripped from the magazine properly... so when i depressed the trigger, the gun didn't fire... instead, i got a 'click'... haha... anyway, missed the live -firing safari... so sina... feel like killing the asshole... "sorry, there are no more rides today..." then when we wemt back half an hour later, we see the rides are still on... stupid shit man...

to be continued... time's up for me...

i saw that!

2004-09-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

i saw that!!! haha... kitty invaded my blog right in front of my eyes... rar!!! anyway, today is damn screwed up!!! haha... had chem pracn but didn't do the last question... which was planning... cos no time do the experiment... and i swear to God that i'm not gonna let kitty become and ah lian!!!! if she tries, i'll shave her head!!! hahahahahaha... i'm evil... i'm vile... i'm nefarious... i'm nuts... i'm chek keong... anyway, back to the point... chem prac was rather alright except for a couple of small hiccups... haha... like having to redo the second question two times cos i wasn't looking at the pipette when i was using it to suck the shit out... haha... so screwed... the juice went into the pipette filler even... woot! the first question was still quite alright... only screwed up at the last part of the question... the 3rd question, the QA one is not bad... lucky i remembered reactions for organic cpds... it actually came out!!! my God! chek keong, you're a bloody genius! stuardee lah boy!!! tml's army open house shall be the last time you play before a levels i tell you... i'll smash your head inside out if you play somemore and dun stardee!!!! wahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

*fartalogy

2004-09-03T15:40:00.000+08:00

he doesnt know if he shld blog.. wadda hell.. just BLOG la! like that also must think! not clever LORRRX! hahaha... so now i just want to act ah lian wOrxXx... if you dUnCh lIkE tHeN cAn dUn cOme hErE sEe hIs blOg mAhXxX...
mahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah lians ROCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! not. lick my butt!!!!! u'll NEVER BE COOLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!! unless you're sammi cheng... well... she's MY gf. so KEONG. you DREAM ON. :D hahaha...
keong's blur tdy.. I SWEAR. :D

kitty was hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whassup?!?!?!

2004-09-02T14:48:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i last blogged... haha... but i got quite a few things to blog today! haha... ok... first up, i watched the bourne supremacy!!!! i swear to God that it's a fantastic show man! siahlah... if only i can do the stuff he does... the skill in unarmed combat, defensive driving, and the excellent timing... oohwee~! haha... damn nice... i think i wanna watch it a second time...

funny things always, and i mean ALWAYS, happen when tanpohlyeivan is with us...

ten cent incident:

ivan, toh and dunno who else were walking across school compound or basketball court when someone very fit-looking shouted at them...

"OI!!!"

everybody thought he want to fight, then suddenly he holds out something to ivan...

"your ten cents..."

anticlimax...

battlefield 1942 (game) incident:

ivan was in toh's jeep... toh sees tank, want to kamikaze, drives towards it...

toh: ivan, jump!!!!
ivan: huh?

jeep crashes into tank... jeep and tank dies, plus ivan too...

chalet incident:

ivan was sleeping on the floor... benji, toh, run jian and me were playing game on ivan's laptop... suddenly ivan sleep-talked.....

ivan: bu yao! bu yao! (no! no! in mandarin)

all stare at him...

after a while he sleep-talked again...

ivan: oi oi oi oi oi!!!

all stare again...

everybody stops playing after a while and proceeds to bed... toh walks beside ivan's area and ivan suddenly stands up... ivan looks furious, but he's actually stoning(while he's facing toh)... toh scare ivan wanna whack him up... suddenly....

ivan: wo yao qu ce suo... (i want to go toilet! in mandarin)

the movie incident:

toh and i walked into the toilet after the movie... an old geezer was in a coughing fit... i took the urinal next to his and ivan stepped up into his urinal... toh and i started laughing nonstop due to obvious reasons...

ivan: what thing??? what thing???

laughing did not stop until we were out of the building...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yesterday afternoon, i went out with toh to play bfv and DOA BEACH VOLLEYBALL!!!! it was the first time i played xbox and i must say it was pretty good... haha... woo~! all the hot chicks in baikainais!!!! (minus the a's and you'll get what i mean) although they were animated, (i know that too), the point is that the ass and legs were damn nice!!! woo~! steam sial... stupid toh kept zooming in somemore, then change angle somemore... macam like some old cheeko... but then, guys will always be guys lah... haha... ok... with this revelation, you all should know that i'm a leg and ass and face person... haha... small boobs, nvm... as long as legs and ass and face nice can ready... haha... what the hell am i typing this for? hmmm...

anyway, yep... had a three hour sleep last night... but it was quite a nice one... cos got dream... haha... what dream it is, i won't say cos i want it to come true... -devious laughter for effect-

kitty cut her hair... i expected a world of difference, cos she created a hype about it... i tot it would be something like joanne peh's hairstyle, but it ended up being just a shorter version of her previous hairstyle... and to think i have to shave my head for that?!?!?!?!!!! NO!!! KITTY!!! YOU MUST CUT SHORTER FIRST!!! HAHA... yep... you guys heard it right, i'm gonna shave my head... i realise that i do that everytime a major exam comes up... i did it in sec2, sec4, jc yr1, jc yr3... haha... macam some habit... haha... but seriously, my hair's getting too long and in the way... getting rid of it is a good thing... no need to buy gel and wax and stuff... no need to worry about bad hair day... haha... and it'll all grow out just in time for prom... haha... what wonderful timing...

today's gp paper is truly one of the worst i've done... it shares the hall of fucked up papers with the gandhi/hitler paper... what?! beauty and cosmetics... come on man... i dun use them, am i suppose to do a freaking compre on it? ok fine, there's no choice, but i couldn't rephrase the points effectively... and i left my summary and aq incomplete... well done mr tan, you're truly fucked... oh well tml's chem prac! and after that, i'll be going to town to get my cap! haha... kitty's gonna accompany me as part of the whitemail deal... haha... damn... i'm gonna lose my precious hair... sobs...

i'm nath, and i'm becoming ill...

2004-08-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

BY THE HANDS OF VIOLENT WINTER, MY FATE IS SEALED!!!!!!

i've come to love metal these days... especially those songs by illnath... headbanging during this streeful period is not bad actually... can help to relieve stress... studies and other forms of stress... living a life that i'm living right now is probably the toughest thing to do and the one that causes massive hair loss and loss of blood resulting from the vomitting of blood...

when i wrote 'princess' in my last blog, there was no reference in particular to anybody... i was just saying that i'll treat my next girlfren better than a princess... yep... that's all i meant, dun read too much into it... i won't say take care too... since this is just a clarification... in fact, the last blog was about my past relationships... yep... i miss them... those were real special moments, no matter how long or short... it's the only times i was so closely bonded to a girl... well, two in this case... there's no other relationship that is closer than this... family relationship ain't quite there yet actually... the only relationship that can rival this is that of a 'brotherhood'... i have no brothers in blood... but i have a bunch of great frens who are like my brothers... to all my brothers, i salute you... thanks for being there for me through ups and downs... you all are the men!!!

ok... mr sim peng nam time... gotta ask him maths questions ready... sometimes, i wonder if he reads my blog... hmm... MR SIM!!! IF YOU"RE READING, CAN U PLEASE LEAVE A MSG IN MY TAGBOARD SO I KNOW? heh heh... oh wells... till the next entry, NgEn nGeN NGEN ngen out!!! khakhakhakhahkahakhakhahahahakhahakhkaha!!!!

regrets...

2004-08-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

precious memories flow back into my mind... both pleasant and the downright ugly... the ugly ones cause regrets and unsatisfaction... the pleasant ones make me miss them but i know it's not possible for them to happen anymore... the reassuring weight of the head on your shoulders... the soft body to hold onto... the whispers of sweet nothings and somethings... the hugs and kisses... i miss them all... the chapter has closed... but a new one will open... when it'll happen is the only unknown... but when it does... she'll feel even better than a princess... i know that for sure...

it's been a long time....

2004-08-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time..... i believe it has been a week since i last blogged... what to do? my modem's still down... and i've been cursing it everytime i see it... the singnet pple and the alcatel pple too... it's been a month and the modem drivers are not in my mail yet... what is this? inefficiency or are they just putting extra effort in being so?

anyway... i've started studying like a mad man... and friends around me are starting to notice that i'm going mad... all well and dandy i would say... what's A levels? nothing much... just that it determines the path of the rest of your life... what a bummer... shit man...

i'm going broke... have but 7 bucks left for the entire week... will get 10 back later though... but i need more...

having my physics practical soon... this week if i'm not wrong... i dun even know my exam dates... how ill-prepared for the prelims can i be? argh... so screwed up... fuck exams... fuck it... just fuck it all... i'm going to die and there's nothing i can do about it...

Just fucking great...

put a gun to my head and blow my brains out......

hoo-ah!

2004-08-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

HOO-ARH!!! here the keongster is... as good as new... well, almost anyway... nothing can get me down now... absolutely nothing... a tower of strength, with a core of iron, that is me... to her, whose name sounds ideal when spelt backwards, i wish u all the best in your relationship... to everybody else, da keongster's not gonna get attached till after a levels, so he's available for fucks' meeting, being a scratching post, he has time to play lan on weekends, but he's strictly unavailable on weekdays unless it's absolutely necessary... 10+ days to prelims, 78days to a levels... 5% of whole syllabi for all three subjects studied... as u can see, and statistics dun lie, our dear writer here has to work much harder... yep...

it's damn sian to think that u studied, what? 19 yrs of your life, not for PSLE, not for O levels, but for this piece of paper called the A level cert that's prolly worth less than 1 cent in a karagounis's, oops, karang guni's eyes? like what the fuck sial... and mind you, what u learn in your two years in jc has nothing or extremely little to do with your previous education... so in 2yrs, you determine the rest of your life? how cool can that be? not at all to me...

fuck shit man... i dun hate to study, i just hate to do homework... haha... fuck shit once again... doing homework only helps you remember stuff better and allows you to know how to apply the various laws and principles and shit we learnt, which in turn is exactly what we have to do to get good grades... ahahaha... i'm so screwed... now i know how it feels to have someone demanding you to jump from one skyscraper to the next while he holds a loaded gun to your head to coerce you into doing so... not good at all...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck x10^462304239784092

2004-08-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

it's happened again... the shit i hate so much... why is it that i have such luck with girls i like? girls i want to love? it beats me... somebody hold me by the shoulders and shake me till me teeth drops please... nic, there's no more chance for competition anymore, both of us lost... damn! she's like, perfect? as in she's the type of girl i like... the sweet, sophisticated, pretty, intelligent type... urgh! so frustrating... luckily i'm quite stoic... can control my emotions quite alright... she prlly never knew i like her, and prolly won't... at least, not for now.... arh! fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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God! i feel better... think i'll finish up the bottle of xo at home later... damn! oh, by the way, i'm closing my private blog... no time to maintain it anymore... no time to fuck around anymore... no time to live anymore... someone plunge a knife up my ribs... and i dowan some cheapo knife... use ginza knife please... at least let me go in style...

fuck it all

2004-08-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

my life's fucked up like mad and there are so many things i can't do anything about... studies wise i can do something about it, but the rest is seriously fucked up... confirmed, gurantee, plus chaop, plus return warranty, plus full refund.... kanina...

just got reminded... i have yet to receive my commando letter... maybe they might send me to somewhere else... infantry is nothing bad... i only worry about getting somewhere with no action at all... no getting dirty... no smelling like the earth... no eating rations with camo paint... no scratches and commando-trained mosquito attacks... fucked up...

what to blog?

2004-08-11T12:56:00.000+08:00

alright... things are pretty dreary these days... school is boring... everybody's under stress... what's the meaning of having fun? nobody knows anymore... all everybody knows is that they can't sleep, they dunno how to have fun, they dun even know how to relax... everybody except me... what the hell... i should pick up my breeches NOW!!!!

i guess everybody should know the feeling of liking someone, but feel that nothing is being reciprocated... i hate that feeling... but as much as i feel like, i can't help but hang on... cos, where there's life, there is hope... a fren of mine just broke up, taking it quite badly... tamade... another just quarrelled with his girl... fucked up... yet another couple got separated by NS... what a bummer... i'm single... fucking big brown hairy orangutan deal...

i know i'm writing rarbeesh, but i can't help it... i can't be bothered to write essays and stories anymore... the world is a cruel place... i can't bear to write sense as well... i'm turning nawnsirnsikle... can't be bothered = doom... but i can dun bother about everything except studying... that, at least, will ensure my survival... if only i had a brother... younger one... i hate older brothers... i'd like one that's younger than me by 2 or 3 yrs... the movie "brotherhood" is nice... but nice is an understatement...

i shan't continue with this nawnsirns anymore... take care you lot...

so wasted...

2004-08-10T09:04:00.000+08:00

i think i'm wasting my life away... was just talking to my dad yesterday and he gave me a very good analysis of my temperament... he said i was the type who can pick things up very fast and excel in in, it's just whether i want to or not... and i'm like a sports car with a parachute retarding my acceleration and progress... my dad says that the thing about me is that i think i know, but in fact, i know nuts... and it is precisely this "i think i know" attitude that prevents me from seeking that perfection...

there's a lot more to write actually... but hell... sian lah

i tried to confuse...

2004-08-04T12:47:00.000+08:00

alright... i think it's time i stopped confusing everyone... i have four wives and no girlfrens... my wives are : my chem TYS, my physics TYS, my maths c TYS and my beloved pool cue... i have a son : my hamster... so yah... lois and i were taking everyone for a ride... and i was surprised to find out some stuff... yah... but, nah... we're not together... i won't go into a relationship now cos it's the crucial period of my life... no distractions whatsoever... and also because, i think it's too fast lah... not ready yet... yep... maybe after my a levels will be a better time... i hope with this revelation, nobody will feel hurt and that everybody will just go 'orh.... so it's like this...' i know that it's not exactly a good thing to do, as in, collaborating with lois to pretend we're together... but yah, i was bored and it sounded quite alright then... apologies again to those who found me shallow...

changed....

2004-08-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

alright you lot... i've changed my blog skin and i'm not gonna change it again for quite a while... took me bloody long to find a suitable skin... or u can say that i'm choosy too... whatever... haha... eat shite and DIE!!!!!! (i'm nuts, just ignore me...)

-the psychopathicbitch is out on the prowl again...

wee~!

2004-07-31T14:36:00.000+08:00

ahahaha... finally get to blog once again... yesterday was a nice day... cos my dear didn't go school and she was home all day sleeping! must have been very tired... anyway, she refused to tell me what she dreamt about other that i was in it cos she wants it to come true... haha... so cute... anyway, i skipped a lecture yesterday, was feeling kinda naughty... lucky miss chua didn't know... if not sure die one...

played approximately 3hrs of soccer yesterday... damn shiok... i assisted in 2 goals and scored one myself... woo~! but yesterday's soccer was one of the most fun ones too cos we had almost full strength.. haha...

anyway, my dear brought her bros for tuition and nearly got lost in little india... at tekka center there... haha... then i kept her company over the phone lor... heh... so nice to hear her voice... and must say something! we just agreed to have a cooking date! haha... that and the movie, dinner, pool, ktv, bowling, supermarket and bukit panjang trip... haha...

last night some pple defaced her blog... oh well, to those pple, y'all backside itchy no hand to scratch issit? neenaohia... anyway, i talked to her over the phone again last night... hee... macam everyday routine... haha... can't wait to see her next weekend... woo~! haha... anyway, i got to go ready... my frens are giving me the you-better-start-playing-game-with-us-right-this-moment-stare already... haha... my dear, i'll write a longer bedtime story for you asap k?

spasm....

2004-07-29T14:43:00.000+08:00

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urgh...

2004-07-29T14:38:00.000+08:00

there have been feedback from friends that my current template is very feminine... oh well.. i'll change it to something else when i have the time alright? i just thought that this skin is quite tranquil... and a peace of mind is what i need now... haha... i sound zen-ish... whatever...

uh-huh...

2004-07-29T10:55:00.000+08:00

alright... i finally got the chance to add another entry... somehow, the school com doesn't allow access to my music website, so i can't change music and it stays as 'no more drama'... is my life a long running serial drama? i dunno... it gives me the impression it is... do i get a grammy for best drama serial? nah...

yesterday was fun! and i mean real fun... we ate at seoul garden and i ate a COW!!! muahahaha... the 8 of us ate until we felt like vomitting, then we ate more ice cream and talked crapped... then even wanted to play some lame game where the forfeit will be to drink up an evil concoction that consisted of ice cream, chilli sauce, seafood kimchi, thai tomyam, coke, grape, a slice of chao ta beef or chicken(couldn't tell), and dunno what else.. the end result was a foul smelling mixture that tasted damn sour... yep, i tasted it... haha... so did jabir... and the consequences were serious... i went home and nearly crapped my intestines out.. haha...

sent out three pics while eating, and received one... haha... nice! really nice... heh... and for once, we finally settled the date.. haha... i'm gonna see you real soon yah? haha... dun be scared of me? i won't bite! unless you really bite me like you said you would, then we'll both end up in the funny farm... muahaha... dates... movie, dinner, supermarket, bowling, pool and karaoke... haha... that's 6 in total... there'll be more of meeting up yet! haha... and i'm gonna make you play pool! haha...

poor lois my dear, had to give tuition so late at night even though she was out the whole day... and she couldn't sleep when she got home somemore cos she had to do some assignment that had to be handed up before 11.59pm... haha... weird timing man... hehe... but luckily she caught me still awake! haha... still awake to wish her good night, cos her batt died on her... haha...

today... i read my blog... there was an invasion... i dunno what to say or write after seeing it... how am i to react? memories i'll keep, always... footprints in my heart... but i guess we all know what we want...

hmm

2004-07-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

have i missed out anything in your life?
i guess theres no place for me and no place for even the dearest memories i hold. because i guess i've let so many things slip by my fingers i dont know what i want or what i need,WHO i need. but i guess i'm slowly learning.. to pick up from where i've left myself hanging.. and maybe perhaps you too..
a part of me held you back, refusing to let go.. a part of me hated the selfishness i displayed..
SIGH
owells. another deeeeeeeeeepressing entry.. and this id not even my blog. :D
-kitty

ngen ngen ngen...

2004-07-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok... i have 8mins to create this post... so it will be a short one ok? had another long conversation with my dear lois yesterday... haha... then talked to her bro, her horny maid, her mum... haha.... had some nice things about me said too but i shan't elaborate now... talked bout a lot of things too... lame jokes and stuff concerning the past and future... vans included... go figure... haha....

today's lessons kinda boring and brain-draining... why do we still have to go to school??? damn... haiz... but nvm... i'll be going for seoul-garden lunch soon!!! haha... actually now... alright, i gtg... be back soon...

2004-07-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

alrighty then, santa keong's got another preety elf helping him with his blog! haha... lois, thanks a lot yah... otherwise people will look very cacat scrolling left and right just to read what i've written... haha... anyway pple, i've changed away the blog music to this for a while... let y'all laugh for a while...

anyway, i was damn stoned yesterday... haha... liang fark asked me to help him buy plastic file holders for him from the bookshop cause he says it's cheaper there... like how much cheaper? hmmm... anyway, yep, helped him buy it and was supposed to meet him at 6.45-7pm at amk mrt... that dick... he said his instructors all pang seh him and left him in charge to lead the recruits in drills... told me he was at sembawang mrt at 7.13pm... in the end, he slept on the train and overshot... so the 6.45 meeting became a 7.45 one... luckily, i had lois for company on the phone and i was smart enough to go kfc and munch on some popcorn chicken and tried out the 7-11 whipped potato... it's seriously not bad, but when it comes out from the machine, you wonder how the goo can solidify to give you the delicious shit of a whipped potato... anyway, yep, i met him at 7.45 to pass the files to him... below is what was been said...

liang fark: sorry sorry!
me: kan nee na bu! where the fuck were you when i called u? prolly at some cock station like yew tee or kranji right?
liang fark: no lah, i was really at semba....
me: dun lie, you fucking guy! it doesn't take half an hour to come down here from sembawang!
liang fark: i was really there, but i fell asleep and overshot...
me: nee nah bu pua chee -toot-! fell asleep?! and left me waiting here like a bloody idiot! you win ready... -toot toot toot-
liang fark: sorry lah brudder... the instructors all pang seh me.............

and you all know the rest of the story...

after i receive payment for the damn files, i went home... was pretty stoned on the bus as well... no tvmobile, aircon like no aircon lydat... after my daily push up and crunches routine, i went to take my shower... toh called me after my shower... damn funny... haha...

he lent me his day of defeat disc about a month back cos mine wasn't working... apparently, he wanted to lend it to his bro now and he couldn't find the disc at home... (of course) so he panicked and turned his housed upside down, banged on the cupboards and strewn all the discs he could find everywhere, but he still couldn't find his cd... (of course) and he got scolded by his mum in the process of searching for his cd... damn funny... i could just imagine his mum scolding him... "hoe arh! what are you looking for? dun make a mess of the house arh! (all in cantonese)" haha... so toh called benji and rikki, both answered "no, it's not with me." (of course) then he msged desmond, who was in camp in tekong... he even called ivan... and ivan is damn good at multi-tasking... can tell toh over the phone that he didn't take the cd and sing karaoke at the same time! what a talent... haha... so toh called me after that... he couldn't believe it when he heard the disc was with me... made me repeat it 3 times somemore... haha... and told me how he got about calling me... made me laughed my head off especially with the ivan part and his mum scolding him... haha...

fast forward to today... school had some firedrill shit... made us stand in the sun like fools... haha... lucky i had lois to keep me company! haha... had to convince her to wake up and go to school somemore! lazybum! haha... kidding... and she did a great job with my blog! haha... thanks for adding the anti-spill thingamajiggy! haha... i owe you a treat!

well, i've ran out of things to blog already... that's it for now folks! haha... hope you like the new audio file on my blog... haha... cheerios!

finally!

2004-07-26T09:12:00.000+08:00

alright, i'm in the com lab now and i've been dealt a fatal blow... my second blog's gone... yep... i did have a second blog... a private one... and i won't tell you the address of it... even if i tell you, you can't access it... cos it's blery gone! don't ask why... i dunno either...

anyway... i did the saturday test for chem and maths... i failed my maths, but at least i'm not last! haha... so it does pay to study... oh well, i'll study like never did before then... after the saturday test, i went to play soccer! woo! haha... then toh came my house to play ground control 2 and at 7, i met jabir and fazly for a game of pool... pool was fun, i brought them to mambo billiards... their first time there, and they liked the place immediately... of course man... haha...

anyway, we played both 8-ball and 9-ball pool... faz was like a permanent fixture for the 8-ball games... nobody could beat him... wow! haha... but it was my turn for the 9-ball... i played every game cos i won every game! woo~~! haha....

anyway, got home at around 11 that night... was thinking of going to bed early, but lois wanta chat! haha... and i was dying to find out how she sounds like, so i gave her a call... whoa! what a conversation... lasted for 2 and 1/4 hrs somemore! power dok! haha... interesting conversation we had... and she can't remember her chinese name offhand! but her chinese is more power than me sial... kept using cheng yu... haha... i was practically dying there... haha... and and and, i just realised i sent 61 smses to her yesterday! haha... my bills's so gonna explode, but who the heck cares?! haha... my ns allowance is condemned anywayz... what with $2000+ owed in phone bills? haha...

anyway, i'm off to create my other blog again... and, it's private... haha... have fun all! have a nice day! this the psychoticbitch, out!

INVASION!!!!!!!!!

2004-07-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

KITTY INVASION ALERTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!
heehee.. why are the words i type suddenly so BIGG on blogger.. hahaha...
i'm so tired now pls... and i still gotta do some fu*ked up project. like as if MOE hasnt ruined my life enough by sending me to the hell hole. BLERH. right now, i'm eating aloe vera, typing my pw shiits, updating the blog and d/l-ing musik at the same time.. WOOHOO!!
oh.. and keong cant update his blog in the mean time..cus his damn modem(spell?) is DOWN DOWN DOWN!!! so i will help him update his blog from now on.. :D :D :D heeheehee.
-runs away

fucked up day...

2004-07-21T13:20:00.000+08:00

alright... i didn't break any mirrors, i didn't cross any black cat's path, and i didn't walk under any ladders... SO WHY AM I HAVING SUCH A FUCKING BAD DAY?! today, my class was supposed to go to seoul garden for lunch together, after which, some of us will play pool... so i brought along my pool cue today thinking that finally, i'll get to use it again after months... then everything ruined the plans like a avalanche gone loco...

first things first... during assembly, they announced that as today was racial fuckmony day, they had some fucking programmes lined up for us... and we are to be fucking released at 3.30... fine by fucking me... then, they fucking announced that there's a fucked up dialogue session for a few selected pple, of which i am fucking one of them... the session fucking starts at 3.30... my gp tutor then announced that those who failed their fucked up gp retest have to stay for fucking supervised self-study today after school... on top of that, my chem teacher made everybody who failed the fucked up chem mid-yrs stay back for a fucking extra lesson at 3 to 4... now, the fucking icing on the fucking cake... i was fucking sick on saturday, so i didn't go for my gp and physics saturday tests... my gp tutor didn't make any fuck of a noise... but the FUBAR (fucked-up-beyond-any-recognition) physics teacher did... he fucking told me at 12noon that i was to be at the fucking library at 3.15 to take my fucked retest... like how fucking last-minute can they get? i hate this God-damned school... somebody please get me out of here................................................................................................................................

damn...

2004-07-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

alright... so i came in last for my heats... big deal... last only... alright lah, it's a big deal for me... damn demoralising... but there's nothing much i can do about it... "i already gave my best, and i have no regrets at all..." sigh... time to focus on the coming a levels and not come in last again... damn...

to whoever is reading this now : i'm not attached and don't see myself getting attached soon! cos no one wants me! and i'm after nobody! so please do not think too much! =)

ps : if you're somebody who wants me, please let me know, cos i'm quite slow at getting hints... muahahaha.... AND, i am NOT desperate!!! whatever lah huh, whatever... =)

ants on a frying pan!

2004-07-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

alright... this is it... damn... i'm recovering from a damn flu and i got nationals tml... shit man... first time... 200m... my heats is damn tough lah... got vjc, rjc, acjc, hcjc, tjc, mjc... and forget what other jc... like what the hell man? the only one i have chance of winning is the mjc guy... shitoz... haha... i dowan to be last in my heats!!! damn malu one... haha... we'll see how tml... i'll give it my best shot though... must win the mj guy... muahahaha....

played virtual pool 3 today... woo! i'm good! haha... but i freaking lost to jeanette lee... man... no surprises... she's the champion man... but seriously, i would like to learn how they screw the ball man... it's crazy, the type of shots she hit... the ball screwed in ways you can never imagine and the placement was almost perfect... damn... seriously, for those who wanna improve their pool, vp3 is the game for you... and you thought you were damn good in pool? haha...

played ground control 2 as well today... now i know why toh loves the mobile arty... it's damn sick... damn...

time to study and chiong tutorial again! muahahaha... no rest for the weary and the lazy... wahahahaha!!!!

wish me luck for tml please, all those who are reading this! i'll love you forever! muahahaha!!!

make that VERY bored...

2004-07-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

make that VERY bored...

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	unique

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

amazed

2004-07-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

i was just feeling bored and was blog-surfin' and i came upon this thingamajiggy... looks fun(i'm QUITE bored) so i gave it a go and voila!

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	irresistable
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	everlasting

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

what are you fucking thinking?!

2004-07-11T10:40:00.000+08:00

you're a fucker... can't believe you're actually thinking of putting a, what? five-year friendship at risk for just some cheap thrill? what the fuck do you think you're doing man? look, you had her, u didn't cherish her... what the fuck you're playing at by suggesting we have a little 'friendly' competition? i've seen enough cases of best friends falling out over a girl... i don't want it to happen between us... although you can be a fucking bastard at times, it does not negate the times we spent together as pals... you're a bastard fuck seriously... to even suggest this competition shit... what are you out to prove? that you can win a girl's heart by just snapping your fingers? forget it you mother fuck guy... you'll just break her heart again... we'll see about this... soon enough, after my a levels... you wanna throw our friendship away with this silly competition, so be it, i'll comply with you... afterall, isn't it true that we have to fight for our happiness and bliss? i don't believe she'll go with you again after how you've treated her... i'm not saying you're a bad boyfriend, neither am i saying you're a good one... i'm just saying you're a bastard fuck for even thinking of hanging our frenship's ass in the breeze...

......

2004-07-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

what am i to type? what have i to type? nationals track and field is coming... but somehow, i lack the motivation to run ready... cos i want to study for my a levels ready... with three months left, i have to rush like crazy... two year's worth of work in 3 months... is that possible? maybe... by the way, i'm resembling a zombie now... i walk like a zombie, and my actions and speech are that of a psychotic feller... chionging tutorials has resulted in sleep deprivation and my brains being fried beyond repair... F-R-I-E-D-!!!!! i need to sleep... good the bye everybody....

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what to BLOG?!?!?!

2004-07-06T13:31:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to blog anymore!!!!!! NgEn nGeN NGen!!!!!

euro's over!

2004-07-05T13:39:00.000+08:00

so the greeks won the Euro 04... maybe jion kiang's right... this year is the year of the greeks... what with 'Troy', olympics in athens and bla bla bla...i watched the match tis very early morning... somehow, i had this premonition that greece will win portugal, yet, i had supported portugal... come on... greece has had a fine run this euro... what can u say of a side that won the opening match against portugal, the side that drew with spain, qualified for the quarterfinals aginst france, which they dumped out of euro, beat the fancied czech republic? nothing much except that they deserved the win perhaps? portugal played well... they had quite a few chances, but they did not take them... paulo ferreira's crossing can't make it... pauletta doesn't seem to be doing anything as well... christiano ronaldo lost the ball too often... yep... it's a crazy euro this year... all the minnows triumph... perhaps i shall be like greece? unfancied but rose fro the depths to win... who knows?

Sephia~~~

2004-07-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

Sheila On 7 - Sephia

Hey Sephia
Malam ini ku takkan datang
Mencobatu berpaling sayang
Dari cintamu

Hey Sephia
Malam ini ku takkan pulang
Tak usah kau mencari aku
Demi cintamu
Hadapilah ini
Kisah kita takkan abadi

Selamat tidur kekasih gelapku
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga cepat kau lupakan aku
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu

Selamat tidur kasih tak terungkap
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga kau lupakan aku cepat
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk meningggalkanmu

Hey Sephia
Jangan pernah panggil namaku
Bila kita bertemu lagi di lain hari
Hadapilah ini
Kisah kita takkan abadi

Selamat tidur kekasih gelapku
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga cepat kau lupakan aku
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu

Selamat tidur kasih tak terungkap
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga kau lupakan aku cepat
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk meningggalkanmu

Selamat tidur kekasih gelapku
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga cepat kau lupakan aku
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu

Selamat tidur kasih tak terungkap
( Oh... Sephia )
Semoga kau lupakan aku cepat
Kekasih sejati mu
Takkan pernah sanggup untuk meningggalkanmu

long time no blog...

2004-06-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

hello~! haha... when was the last time i blogged man? must be aeons ago... haha... today today today... i had a dental appointment today! good news man! i'm gonna have my braces removed at the end of august! wee~! this calls for a celebration! haha... 3 yrs of suffering going to be over soon!!! haha... my orthodontist asked whether i wanted to take it out or not and some other stuff... mainly is to cover her back in case something (like my 4 second pre-molars gives my mouth some problem like improper chewing) happens after the removal of braces... haha... it's pretty much SOP(standard operating procedure), but it made me laugh... haha... funny arh, Dr sharon loh...

after my dental, i went to meet lydia for lunch! haha... cos she work in chinatown and chinatown is like right beside SGH... so long time never see her ready... still the same old lydia! still as pretty and bubbly as ever! only difference is that she looks damn matured in office wear than in chij uni... haha... anyway, she brought me to hong lim hawker center to eat... my gosh! the food there's damn nice! haha... my fishball noodles rocked, but i caught a wiff of lydia's prawn noodles and almost fainted! it smelled even better! my gosh! i think i shall raid hong lim again next time i go for dental... there must be more treasures in there! my gosh... another great eating place... food! yummy schlummy!

anyway, kitty's now in OCS!!!! damn... this morning, she msged me to let me know that there were some commandos in school for the S cube seminar thingy... damn... haha... i want the red beret! i wanna go OCS! haha... nvm... i'll get my turn soon... right now, it's study study study! wee~! haha... i must be going nuts ready lah... what the heck? rejoicing in studying? yeesh... so unlike me mans... haha... anyway, i think it's time i do some tutorials already... i'll blog again... soon i hope... haha...

*groan

2004-06-28T12:09:00.001+08:00

Current Mood: stressed though i haven't been doing work... it's precisely cos i haven't been doing work that's why i'm stressed...
Current clothes: yjc uniform...
Current annoyance: my own fucking lazy self...
Current smell: davidoff cool water
Current thing I ought to be doing: doing tutorials and studying for a levels which is about 4 mths away...
Current windows open: fuck the windowa... i need to study...
Current desktop picture: some picture of a meadow... school laptop, what to expect?
Current favorite band/artist: lost prophets
Current book: no books... only notes that are empty...
Current cd in stereo: ain't got no stereo set, only a home theater system, and i ain't home...
Current crush: feeling crushed actually... by the amount of work i have to catch up...
Current favorite celeb: nobody actually...
Current hate: my own lazy self...

= Do I =
Remember your first love?: it's impossible to forget...
Still love him/her?: kinda upset when i think of this...
Like the taste of alcohol?: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOZZZZEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
Have a favorite candy?: nope... i rarely eat sweets... maybe fisherman's friend?
Go to or plan to go to college: am in one... regretting...
Have a secret crush: no more...
Do they know yet?: no crush...
Care about looks?: of course... i'll want to look good naturally...

=Love life=
First crush: a girl in primary one... haha... hormones raging already...
Single or attached?: single, available not desperate till after a levels... ahahaha...
Ever been in love?: yesh...
Do you believe in love at first sight?: maybe not... not love anyway... maybe like?
Do you believe in "the one?": i'm no neo...
Describe your ideal significant other: someone who i like? and eventuallly love?

=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: truth or dare...
Have you ever been intoxicated?: once... twice... yah, around there... i rarely get drunk...
Favorite place to be kissed?: lips are made for kissing...
Are you a tease?: tease? nah... i go straight to the point... i might tease if i'm in the mood...
Shy to make the first move?: depends...

=Word association=
Rubber: ducky
Green: leaves
Wet: water
Peanut: butter
Hay: you.. as in 'hey you!'
Cold: feet
Steamy: tim sum
Fast: me
Freaky: freakazoid...

--LAST THING YOU:--
Bought: laksa...
Ate: laksa...
Drank: water...
Read: passage for comprehension...
Watched on tv: news last night...

--EITHER / OR:--
club or houseparty: houseparty... can play truth or dare and some other crazy shit...
beer or cider: cider... e33 will do nicely...
drinks or shots: any... as long as BOOOOOOOOOZZZEEEEE!!!!! can ready.....
cats or dogs: any...
single or taken: single, but with my life taken from me... i need u to save me...
pen or pencil: pencil...
gloves or mittens: gloves...
food or candy: food...
cassette or cd: minidisc...
coke or pepsi: root beer...
this or that: or both...

--WHO DO YOU WANT TO:--
get really wasted with: superfly... wasted~!
look like: me... with a little more muscles all over...
be like: khai... in the sense he's damn hardworking...
avoid: being lazy..

--LAST PERSON YOU--
talked to: jabir...
hugged: kitty... long long time ago... i dun go around hugging pple at will...
instant messaged: kitty, last night... about school reopening today...

--WHERE DO YOU--
eat: anywhere where there's food for me...
Wish you were: mugging like mad now... no computer, no nothing around the world... the best yet, no a levels... just me and my mugging...

--HAVE YOU EVER...--
Dated one of your best friends?: nope...
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: yeah...
Broken a bone?: two sprains, no broken bones...
Played Truth Or Dare?: many times...
Come close to dying?: perhaps? i dunno and i dun care, cos i'll die if i dun study soon...

--WHAT IS:--
The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: i dunno... i dun care...
Your bedroom like?: stuffy... messy like fuck...
Your favorite thing for breakfast? as long as it's food...
Your favorite restaurant?: as long as they serve good food...

--RANDOM QUESTIONS--
What's on your bedside table?: books, cds, clock, cd cases, bottle of lucky stars and a jug full of cranes my cousin gave me, the crane kitty folded for me at ljs last time...
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?: more mass and muscles to my bod...
What feature are you most insecure about?: none.. i look damn good... just lying to myself...
Do you ever have to beg?: nope and hope not...
Do you have too many love interests?: nope... at least, it's less than ten since p1...
Do you know anyone famous?: yah, bill gates and olivia lum are two of the less featured ones...
Describe your bed: great place to sleep...
Spontaneous or plain?: spontaneous... but college life is plain...
Do you know how to play poker?: nope... but i'm the daidee king...(disputable)
What do you carry with you at all times? phone, wallet...
How do you drive?: aggressively...
What do you miss most about being little?: the freedom...
Are you happy with your given name?: i wished it could be "giancarlo franchesca salvatore renoir smith" or "pongsiri chek keong thiratanapitak" or maybe just "kenji santos tan chek keong"
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?: priceless...
What color is your bedroom?: apple-green...
What was the last song you were listening to?: andy lau's "yi qi zou guo de ri zi" yao lei yao wo yao qing yao tin yao hoi yao dei.....
Do you talk a lot?: depends, i have my quiet moments...
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?: i hate my lazy self, but i know it's cos i'm not motivated to study... i'm motivated to do other things...
Do you think you're cute?: no...
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: only if they can do something about it but don't...
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: am still fucking nice...
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?: no girlfren, sure as hell will never get a boyfren... so that leaves friends...

this is it...

2004-06-25T16:19:00.000+08:00

this is it... i'm pissed beyond pissing anymore... my life is shit... i've been spending way too much money on games and BOOOOOZZZEEE!!!! not that i mind actually, but not spend too much too... i'm at war with my dog... at war with the bitch of my second sis who want to talk so much but dun care to examine and acknowledge the fact that her lifestyle is worse than mine... what with 3 boyfrens huh? and coming home after 10 most of the time and past midnight not quite so seldom? bitch... hope you rot... i haven't been blogging for abt 3 days and wanted to and you kaopeh so much... you weren't using the com so i switch it off lah, is it wrong? get angry with me for switching the com off? like as if turning it back on takes up an enormous part of your energy like that... fucking whining bitch... just get out of my way lah... wait till i get my degree... and i'll go one up over you too... i'm at war with everything aound me now... just fucking great... at war with my books... at war with ugly singaporeans... at war with A levels... and if army don't post me to commandos, i'll prolly find myself at war with mindef too... just fucking great... God... even my stomach's growling now... which food am i gonna be at war with next?

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!

2004-06-21T10:13:00.000+08:00

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!!

whatever happened to morality?

2004-06-21T09:47:00.000+08:00

whatever happened to character well-being and morality? we have the best schools in the region, the best airport, the smartest scholars, the best this the best that and bla... but have you noticed? we have the worst types of people in Singapore? people who litter at will at letter boxes, when there's a rubbish bin just 2metres away... people who spit at bus stops and in lifts, or even on the ground... like as if they're planting mines to spoil a person's day... giving them tissues won't do, they'll just spit into the tissue and throw the tissue on the floor, so it's still littering... Singapore is supposed to be a modern society, the elitists... yet, u have people who fight over hello kitty toys and over queue jumping... what's the point of queueing if people jump queues? these people are the disgrace of Singapore... everyday, i read in the papers, people urging the government to shed its nanny role... but do u think it's really possible? on one hand, u have the people who are well brought u in character, people like me, who will help people in need and observe rules and regulations, well, most of the time anyway... on the other, you have the people who are educated to the highest levels, but obviously do not possess the qualities of a human being... u see snobbish behaviour being exhibited by these people... i'm sick and tired of them... these people irk me... so what if they're better educated in the academics? it doesn't give them the right to gloat over anybody... and they are definitely not above anyone, since they have rotten characters, spelt with a capital R... like the recent furore over the guy who shouted at the convent girls... hell, i'll support him anytime... though i agree that his words may be too harsh, put yourself in his shoes and think... what will you do if you're watching a show you so wanted to catch cos you're studying dance, then a bunch of convent girls come in and start sniggering and making noise and don't seem to stop? sure, it's their first time and they may not know how to appreciate art, but they should have done their research, teachers should have contingency plans for such a thing... and in any case, the teachers were not helping to hush them, so that guy got terribly pissed, stood up and said, rather, shouted "fuck you all! just shut the fuck up!" or something along that line... now, many people wrote in to condemn that guy, that he scared the girls, that he was uncouth to use such language on a bunch of 14yr-olds, that he was a disgrace... well, i'll say to all those who blasted him, "fuck you all!" he was doing what's right and you blast him... get a life you dickheads... nowadays, children are even scolding vulgarities in primary 1... just because you choose to close one eye doesn't mean it doesn't happen... ugly Singaporeans... if only i could do something, anything at all to change you all... until then, i guess people like me have to be ashamed of being Singaporeans and continue trying to repair the damage you're causing to our image...

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!!

2004-06-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!!!!

no blog... no blog...

2004-06-20T18:34:00.000+08:00

i haven't been blogging lately... dunno what to blog... got nothing to blog... my brain is filled with so many conflicting msgs... rhh... hahaha... kanasai...
recently what did i do? oh, i boooOOOooZEZEEZEZEZEEEE again! so fun! tried all the different types of vodka... ok lah, not all... no money to try all... haha... sianjipua...

i went for the class bbq also... haha... joyce made me eat chicken that was not thoroughly cooked... yucks... haha... ji fell into the pool... the fire got started like one hour after ji and i reached, and we were like 4 and a half hours late or something... so we were starving... haha... we kicked the ball around, ate charcoal tainted food, talked about why can't we commit incest(jion kiang started the topic), eventually, we started talking nawnsirns... then at 11pm, we all left nizam's place and went home... i missed the last bus, so in the end, i took a stroll home from ang mo kio mrt station... what fun... the weather was cool, the breeze was light and refreshing, the surroundings were so tranquil, just perfect for a walk in the night, if only i had someone to be with... if only...

oh well... shit, one more week and school's gonna start... i hate school!!! kanasai... i wish that something will happen that'll turn me into a mugger overnight... hehe... then a levels can eat my shite... wee!

the 12 months!!!!

2004-06-18T17:08:00.000+08:00

the christmas song "12 days of christmas" in a new way!

on my 12th month in vietnam, woo~! my CO gave to me, 12 boarding passes, everybody now, 12 boarding passes, 11 dust-off medevacs, can't really use them, 10 beat-up hueys, no good, 9 small babies, not mine, 8 new replacements, never worked, 7 pounds of c4, BOOM! 6 army nurses, weet whew!5 KIA, arh really KIA~~~ 4 guns not firing, 3 bulletholes, 2 BARs, and a country full of vivious VC~!~!~~!!!

paint it all black...

2004-06-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

below is a nice song... taken from "Nam"... a tv series about the vietnam war... sadly, i can't find other songs in that show... it was ten yrs back... sigh... it's a damned nice show...

Rolling Stones - Paint It Black

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev'ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin' sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin' comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!

move on?

2004-06-16T10:42:00.000+08:00

when is it time to move on? how would you know when to move on? there was once that i didn't want to move on... i've tried, but i was stuck between moving on and relishing the memories... i've really loved you... i really did... yet there's this nagging feeling... i hate it... it makes me wanna hold on, when i want to move on... and it makes me wanna move on, when i want to stay... this feeling was driving me crazy... but since then, i've learnt to live in self-denial... i wished that there was some signals coming from u then... some signals that suggest that u do want me as a partner, a soulmate... some signals that tell me u want me... since it didn't come, i guess ignorance is bliss... how true a saying... well, it's all in the past, and i think i wanna put it behind me now... if we were meant to be, things will just go one helluva big round and then back to the starting point again... but till it happens, friends forever...

kitty, this is not for you...

last train home...

2004-06-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

Lost Prophets - Last Train Home

One! Two! Three!

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again

hmmm....

2004-06-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

are you talking bout me?

urgh...

2004-06-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

yesh yesh, my blog's eating shite... the last entry was how many aeons back... i know i know... i can explain... these few days, i haven't really been online, and even if i was, i didn't have anything to blog... you see, my mind's gone fuck ready... i can't think straight, can't think front, can't think left, can't think right, can't think back... can't even think properly... basically, my brain has malfunctioned and i can't think at all... much less think of what to think... oh God... i think i'm making you confused... well, i'm confused too... ahahaha... let's pop some bottles of champagne and celebrate! wee!!!

speaking bout BOOOOOOZE!!!! i drank some vodka yesterday, tasted like cough mixture... bleah... stupid tanpohlyeivan's suggestion... then had a bottle of e33 today... ok lah, not really a bottle... threw a quart of it away... haha... cos it wasn't cold anymore and it was shakened too much when i carried it to where we were... so when i opened it, it became like champagne!!! flowed out like mad... the worse part was that the fizz in the drink was enhanced by the shaking, so every bit i sipped produced a lot of foam and fizz and blablabla... haha... yucks... BOOOOZE came out of my nose as a result... stupid toh laugh until crazy... ahahahaha....

yay!!! euro 2004 is here!!! later in the wee hours of the morning, there's england vs france... a must watch game! my classmates are going to ji's house to watch the game... hope my dad allows me to go...if not, i'll be damned!!! ahahahahaa... and justin booked me for lan tml... ahahaha... stupid ass says he's block leave ending, so must play lan... i'm freaking broke can? haha... but since he offer to blanja me... fine then... haha.... anyway... yah... got to go repair my brain ready, if that's still possible... haha... ARGH!!! NO!!! DUN COME NEAR ME!!! NO!!! PLEASE!!! STAY AWAY!!! I DOWAN TO DIE!!! NO!!! ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

*satellite transmission uplink lost*

what's your flavour?

2004-06-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

You are Fresh Mint.
You are caring and friendly. You have a nurturing
personality and always help out a friend in
need. You are fairly outgoing, and always show
a friendly face. You truly care for other
people, and you show it. However, you may
neglect your own responsibilites or become over
involved in your friends' personal affairs.
Most Compatible With: Orange "orange, orange, wherefore art thou, orange?"

Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

interhouse soccer and..yeah....

2004-06-08T11:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i played in the interhouse soccer tournament for RODNEY!!! haha... i played a total of 2 and a half matches out of the 4 we played yesterday... i did a lot of sprinting around, trying to close down on the occasional breakthrough in the defence... couldn't play upfield cos [1]i rarely got the ball (my flank was relatively quiet) [2]farhan and ji ventured upfield quite frequently, so i had to stay as last man, if not will jialat if got long ball... haha... my stamina dropped like sai ready... just 14mins of sprinting around and i'm tired like sai... haha... but i'm proud to say that Rodney's at the top of the group!!! haha... we won 2 games and drew 2 games! haha... but we stayed at the top of the group by the toss of a coin! haha... wee~! i fell on my hand again yesterday, and the pain is even more jialat now... BUT! i'm still not gonna see the doc!!! there's nothing the doc can do anyway... it's a sprain...

ok, now to move on to a person and an issue she raised that i've been thinking about... i didn't receive the wrong signal or msg... at least, i dun think i did... in some ways, i'm sort of still waiting... i dunno why, perhaps it's hope? i'm moving on? it's just a facade i think... i'm just trying to shift a little of the much needed focus into my studies... i dunno why u say that there's no one to belong to in this world... there are many pple and things out there to belong to, just whether you want to belong to them or not... it's not their choice, it's yours... sure, nothing is forever... everything we have, everything, will be gone from the face of this earth eventually... but the key word is 'eventually'... till then, why not just live life to the fullest? i dun understand why you're still apologising... i already said that there's nothing to apologise about... i know you're feeling at a low now... but you'll have to pick yourself up and start believing in both, yourself and this world... believing in the world is a much harder thing to do... but you can always take the first step in believing in yourself... if you lose trust in yourself now, how are you gonna trust others? i'll see a chinese sinseh later, just to make you less worried about my hand...
but in the meantime, please think about what i wrote here... i hate to see you like this, and i think you should know it... dun say sorry to me anymore please...

this is kitty here.

2004-06-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

i got nervous. typing what i wanted to type in my blog. was it too straight forward? or should i have told you face to face? i didnt want to make you wait. neither did i want to send out the well, wrong messages.
you're moving on.. and i guess i have. i dont want to belong to anybody.. because there will be nobody to belong to in the first place. everything here is just temporary.. nothing is for real.. nothing is forever.. because somehow,i've lost trust in that word.. everything that i have, that i own feels like they arent mine.. i dont even know why i'm feeling this way..
ok.. i'm typing a load of nonsense.. the point is.. i'm sorry.. i hate that owrd.. cause it's too overused.. by me that is.. but i really mean it here..
i'm really sorry

nice dream

2004-06-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

by the way, yesterday i had a pleasant dream... heh... i dreamt i received mail from mindef notifying me that i was to report to hendon camp in late december... I WAS SELECTED FOR COMMANDOS!!! haha... i'll summarise the dream somewhat from here... i went through all the shit... all the physical, emotional and psychological trauma... haha... persevered and passed out of commandos! wee~! had a little drama along the way though... haha... earned my red beret, airborne tab, ranger tab, ippt gold badge, then got the sniper tab also... (sniper, not marksman mind you... it's one leveled rifle, not the crossed rifles...) wah piang... haha... it was damn nice a dream man... too good to be true... then came the real deal, we were going to iraq as a peacekeeping cum anti-teror detail... this is it, the baptism of fire for me, my trusty steyr SSG sniper rifle, and my buddies... just when we were kitting up for a mission in the holy city of najaf, my bloody phone rang and i woke up... damn... time to wash up and go to school...

bloody irritants!!!

2004-06-07T09:08:00.000+08:00

kaneena... had my day spoilt early in the morning... tot i could enjoy some music in the lib... then suddenly there was an indian gathering two coms away from mine... i'm not racist... i didn't mind them until they started talking like the whole library belonged to their ancestors or something... like just shut up can? i can't even hear myself think... bastards and bitches... not only did they converse loudly, they even played some indian music so loudly that it got freaking irritating lah... urgh... if only i had a FM minimi with 200 rounds of belt-linked ammo... make that 1000 rounds... 5 cans of ammo... just nice for a massacre of 5 indians... one mag for each... i blast them till their bodies disintegrate... bloody fucktards...

a tribute to you all brave warriors!

2004-06-06T09:20:00.000+08:00

this date, the 6th of June, marks the anniversary of your daring jumps and landings into normandy... this date, marks the biggest seaborne invasion ever seen in history... this date is when hundreds of thousands of american, british, canadian, and a many other countries' troops landed in normandy to free the world of hitler's grasp of continental europe... statistics recorded that 2500 of you gave your lives for this foothold, but everyone knows the number is much much more... you landed in the open beaches, with little or no concealment, and the germans in heavily fortified bunkers that could survive a direct hit from a bomb... had to fight against germans armed with machine guns and artillery support with just rifles, submachine guns and grenades... however, you persevered and not only manage to drive the germans out of normandy, but you proceeded to liberate many other european countries from the tyranny of nazism... in a year and a couple of months from d-day, you defeated the germans in germany... your sacrifices are not in vain... the world is a free place now, thanks to your gift in blood and youth... this is a tribute to the men who fought with odds heavily stacked against them... a tribute to heroes...

self-esteem...

2004-06-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

by the way, u have to cultivate more self-belief and self-esteem... i was more upset when u said maybe you weren't good enough for me... did i expect much? anyway, i hope this encourages you to think positively and be the best u can be for the person you love... if u think you're not good enough for me, you're prolly not good enough for others too.. think about it...

i dunno what to name this...

2004-06-05T19:06:00.000+08:00

i'm typing with one hand now... sprained my left wrist during soccer just now... me lah... so garang, go play as keeper, then nv block the ball properly... then sprained my left wrist in the process... what only...

sigh... so the day didn't turn out to be a wonderful one... yeah, i shouldn't have read your blog... if i didn't, at least i can live in my dreamland a little longer... but then again, maybe it's better for me to find out about it...i know u like zm... go for it... dun feel bad about it, you're not a bitch... actually, i kinda sensed this was coming, but i clung on to the hope that it wouldn't... when you're with me, a substantial part of the conversation would be about zm or kl... i dun really mind, but sometimes, it just goes on and on, but i didn't have the heart to stop u... i just took it in...'twas cos of the conversation that i suspected u like zm... sides, u told me u used to like him too... yep...

maybe it's a good thing afterall... i'll be busy preparing for a levels, so might neglect u... nxt yr still got ns... and if i really get into commandos, my weekends will get burned pretty badly too... i won't be sad about it, i won't let it affect me... we'll still be frens... i just want to see u smile after this... i will... =) take care...

on my own...

2004-06-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

...

2004-06-04T19:39:00.000+08:00

i read some things that i think i shouldn't have... was happy just this aft... what a difference a few hours make...

I died in my dreams
What's that supposed to mean?
Got lost in the fire
I died in my dreams
Reaching out for your hand
My fatal desire

ideality?

2004-06-04T12:30:00.000+08:00

must girls be sweet, innocent, gentle, soft-spoken, cute, and goody-2-shoes before guys like them? i dun think so... at least, it doesn't apply to me...

hello there! have i seen u before?

2004-06-04T12:07:00.000+08:00

wah lau eh! today's like a damn stupid day man... i woke up at 9 to go school to play soccer cosmy class was talking bout it like crazy yesterday... anyway, i found out that they not playing today suddenly cos nobody went to school... all pontang class, like me... gao sai... so in the end i went to school to eat brunch, and then went home again... like damn kanasai lor... anyway, went to check out some mp3cd players just now... saw the one that i wanted, but the freaking price is $249!!!! sigh, got to save for a while more before i have enough bling blings to buy it... hahaha....

anyway, yesterday i brought the big trophy home! yippee!! hahaa... and i was hugging it everywhere i went, until kitty prised it out of my hands and assured me that no one was going to steal it from me... hahaha....yep... i kept kitty company till 7, then i decided to go cos i was beginning to emit some musky odour...(i played soccer in uniform before kitty came cos maye told me she went home) muahahaha... kitty didn't mind the perspiration and gave me a big hug before i went home... i was damn tired and like damn dead lah, but after that single gesture, i bet u didn't see it, but i was skipping a little as i walked out of school... yep, what a change a simple but nice gesture can bring!

oh well... gotta go whip my body into shape now... haha... prom and commandos, HERE I COME!!! wahahahaha.... tomorrow's gonna be a wonderful day!

THE RASMUSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-06-03T10:18:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha... i think i'm going nuts ready... as if i haven't been going bonkers... what only... anyway, THE RASMUS rAwKS!!!! their songs are damn nice! especially 'still standing', 'funeral song', 'first day of my life' and 'in my life'... 'in the shadoes is quite passe ready, so check out their other songs!!! wahahahaha....

i died in my dreams

2004-06-02T19:35:00.000+08:00

part of The Rasmus - The Funeral Song

I died in my dreams
What's that supposed to mean?
Got lost in the fire
I died in my dreams
Reaching out for your hand
My fatal desire

bastardo...

2004-06-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to blog anymore... my brain gone f*** ready...

i'll show you..

2004-05-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

i'll show you all that i am not what you all think i am... not a failure... i'll get the results for you to see... just watch it...

songs galore!!!

2004-05-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Addicted

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still addic-
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true

I'd run a thousand miles to get to you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to treat you good in every way

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting
Till the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker

i buried myself alive...

2004-05-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

The Used - Buried Myself Alive

you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that

I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you

tired*

2004-05-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

oh well, i just returned home from like, 2 hours of continuous soccer? haha... shagged out man... not even an ounce of energy is left in every body channel within me... so i guess i won't be blogging much today... haha... i'm addicted to you...

just another blog...

2004-05-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

hello there... today, i shall try not to obfuscate your minds with big words... however, it's only gonna be a token gesture of attempt... i subsisted through school today... did my tutorial and it mattered the most... heh... so proud of myself... wahahaha... stupid dialogue session's gonna keep me in school though... damn... how i wish i can go and pump iron in the gym now and not go for the vapid dialogue session... today's topic is 'politics'... yeah, i think most politicians are two-faced, corrupted and God-knows-waht... they are the best though, in lying that is... liars, double-crossers, masters of deceit... with a few exceptions, i have no respect for any of them, except for the power they possess... bah... i'm just ranting about politicians now...

i wanna play soccer!!! couldn't sleep last night, so i downloaded some clips from the internet... saw a wide array of tricks by ronaldinho, ronaldo, rivaldo, denilson, cristiano ronaldo, figo, bla bla bla...... absolutely stunning man... instantly, i felt like i could play some soccer... haha... but it's all just a fantasy, a muse... the only trick i know is to fall down and clutch my face at the corner flag when the opponent rams a ball at my thigh so as to get him red-carded... (think world cup)... cool trick, but i can't afford the fine if fifa decides to dish some justice to me... =P

BOOOOOOO!!!!! dun mention it for the chocs k? =) just thought maybe the next time u're home tired and dinner is at dunno-where, u'll have something to munch on... heh... i wanna watch 'the day after tommorrow'!!! *scratch

bigshot...NOT!!!!

2004-05-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

today, i woke at 6.40... didn't hear my phone ringing...(it's my alarm clock)... so screwed up... so in the end, i was late for school... though i slept at 1130 last night, i still feel like i need a lot of sleep... my eyes are stinging, my face has this expression of eternal stone-ness on it... what great fun...

yesterday i was so shagged, depleted.... played an hour of soccer during pe and then had to do sprints for track training... now i know why my classmates are calling me the mad bitch who can't stop running... wahahaha.... yea-ARH!!! I'M CHEK KEONG BITCH!!!! wahahahaha.... spasticism never took on a more menacing form in me!!!! after training, i just felt like a zombie... really... walked like one, talked like one, looked like one... only thing is, i'm not decomposed yet, so that makes me a nicer-looking zombie bitch... KEWL!!! wahahaha... i think i'm going bonkers, loco, brains gone fuck... wahahaha... be infected by the psychopathic lunacy of keong bitch today!!! i'm gonna terrorise the school today!!! death to islamic terrorism!!! keong's lunatic terrorism will grip the world in a way no one has ever been able to do so... wahahahaha!!! like real... (see, i told u keong's a lunatic)

that feeling...

2004-05-24T11:56:00.000+08:00

that repulsive feeling is back... the feeling which is esoteric, but felt by many... urgh... it just manifested naturally, though my actions and words dun betray my thoughts... i know i have little or no reason to feel it, but don't we all feel it at some point of time? the feeling left to grow after the seeds have been planted... oh well, i can't control it, so there's really not much point in moping over it all...

today, i feel like i can go nuts... maybe i should pretend to be a spastic retard cum nutcase... say, a mentally and emotionally-unstable psychopathic serial murderer? hey, that's quite a cool idea... maybe they'll all believe my acting and declare me a pes F and lock me up in hougang chalet for good? at least, it helps me get away from it all... but then again, who took away my kitchen knife? escapism, a nice word... wahahahaha... however, after careful consideration, nah, i have much to live for, so i should just remain sane and be the saint that i always have been... for the time being...

"ficken du!", and all that sort of thing i say to myself... "my kingdom for a peanut", so says me too! it's jolly good that we're all rather satisfied with things... at least, i feel happy when u are! smiles for u will nv fade, feelings for u won't either... but then again, time is but slowly ticking away... make good use of it, Father Time won't ever return...

Immortality, take it! It's yours! Is there no one else? Is there no one else?! *guffaws and walks away clutching his head in mock pain

whassup?!?! hungry...

2004-05-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

The Used - On My Own

see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On My Own..........
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yay!!! dinner time!!!! yawnz...

advert shit...

2004-05-23T10:51:00.000+08:00

GOOOD MOOORRNING EVERYBARDY!!! wahahaha... was just checking my mail when i came upon something from lyd... check tis out man... it's whacky and makes a great start to the day! http://www.asiapacificadfest.com/01welcome/
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shout outs. *sick

2004-05-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

supposed to have some maths lecture to discuss the mid yr papers... but i couldn't make it... woke up today with a leaking tap for a nose... tried sucking and blowing but to no avail so went to see the doc finally... dreads... anyway, diagnosis is out, i'm down with a flu... damn it... (take 2 of these 3 times a day, then 1 of these 4 times a day, this one take 1 twice a day, all medication to be taken after food. have a nice day and please come back...) come back? what for? damn... gonna rot at home today i guess... my sis is fighting with me for the comp now... what an ass... urgh...

to:
tiff - i dunno exactly what happened, but i guess it's something to do with bgr... cheer up k? if God brings u to it, He'll bring u through it...
angie - from what i noe happening btn u and him, i think it's really time for u to take a break k? cheer up k? take the time to chill a bit...
liang fark - eh neenaohia... if those pple in ur company screw up again, give them all a few times jialat x jialat lah!!! when's the nxt fark meeting?
lyrad - i want a toy hammer too!
jianwei - i really dunno what to do... this sucks...
khairil - u gotta help me with my physics man...
everyone else - thanks for visiting my blog
U - though we haven't really been talking much and meeting up and msging and going out and stuff, i want u to know that i still smile whenever i see u... i dunno why...

gonna take a rest now... medicine's working...

USED...

2004-05-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

Box Full Of Sharp Objects - The Used

It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Do you want a song of glory
Well I'm fucking screaming at you

It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful (thing)

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful (thing)
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful (thing)
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

current favourite song of mine, dun ask why, i just found their music cool... muahahaha... those parts in italics are when the lead actually screams into the mike, not unlike chester from linkin park... woot!

damn...

2004-05-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

ok, so i didn't go to school today... my leg was damn pain and i had a fever from a low-grade infection resulting from the split on my feet... shit... i missed out on the chance to donate blood... but then again, even if i went, they'll prolly turn me away as well... damn fever... urgh... i dunno a lot of things... i feel a lot of things... i thought about a lot of things... i can't help it, i had too much time to spare today... more than words... damn, i dun even noe what i'm saying... then again, maybe i do know after all... argh... time to go to bed... nights all...

ke neng ming tian hui gen hao... ke neng er yi...

19th annual track & field meet...

2004-05-19T19:35:00.000+08:00

just came back from the school's 19th annual track and field meet! wahahahaha... today's a happy day for me! wee! haha... i won the 200m, 400m, 800m, 4x100m, and the 4x400m gold! wahahaha... then my bag's damn heavy!!! wah lau eh, was practically dragging it home man... muahahaha... kitty ran the 100m girls too! but she kana cramp towards the end... poor thing... then she not feeling well somemore... some things happened, but i hope u won't be sad k? dun let them affect u too much... if u need someone to talk to or just to be there, i'm always ready k? i told u many times before ready... heh... anyway, the victories do come at a price... have u seen a blister on a blister on a blister that's next to a split in the flesh? yep, i got it... was walking to the bus stop when i suddenly felt my slippers like wet wet one... after an investigation, found out what's the problem... blood was gushing out from the split... tamade, then i tml how to donate blood?! anyway, i had to wash my brand new slippers, which looks like shit now cos of some shit on the left side, the third time in 1 week... damn cock... argh!!! anyway, going to bathe now before doing my maths tutorial... sucks man... urgh...

today i ran my best, and more... not so much for me, but rather, i ran it for u... thanks for supporting me...

tot i had quite a bit to type, but nvm... can't think anymore...

that's it...

2004-05-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

just came back from personal training in school not long... wahahaha... so tired and so hungry... muahahaaha... right...
went to CMPB to have my army medical checkup today... everything went alright ba? except for a little screw up when i was doing the eyesight test... muahahaha... then they declared me as PES D cos my dad has hep B then they ask me to do blood test to see if i have it too... damn... anyway, screwed up a little at the iq test too... haha... a lot of questions then not enough time to do... urgh...
Anyway, i went to visit poor kitty, who's down with a flu and a terrible headache... yesh, i did use the vest as an excuse... sorry... just wanted to see how you are... yeps... anyway, i may not be dr keong, but i believe that there's nothing much that ample rest and h2o can't cure... heh... and, and, and i must say mucho mucho gracias for helping me 'name' my vest k? it's absolutely splendid! and ur handwriting doesn't suck, if it does, then mine must be horrendous... haha...
went to school to have my not-so-secret training for tml's event... muahaha... tml, i'll burn the track, leaving the other competitors with nothing else but my dust to eat! wahahaha........tml's the big day... all eyes will be on me as i say the oath and lead the contingent... siah la.... so powerful... haha... OCS, here i come! muahahaha.... i can only leave the fate of my races to God tml... i'll do my best, and more... i know you'll be supporting me, won't you? do take care, get well soon! i'll see ya soon... =)

load you bitch, LOAD!!!!!

2004-05-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

my damn blog's not loading the latest entry... *smashes the com and walks away... ever wondered why people laugh at things that dun make sense?

i suppose if we couldn't laugh at things that dun make sense, we can't react to a lot in life...

i need to sleep...

2004-05-17T11:18:00.000+08:00

i need to sleep... i really do... i had only 9 hr's sleep in the last 72.. i noe NS men have it worse, but hell, i'm not in NS yet... lack of sleep... caused mainly by the 7 freaking cups of coffee... had stomachache cos of that too... NEVER drink coffee when u wanna sleep in a few hours' time, especially not 7 cups!!!! NEVER drink coffee with an empty stomach, unless u wanna feel like there's a hurricane in your stomach... Coffee... it's been a long time since i had coffee bean's iced mocha and iced vanilla... the last time i had a mocha was on 24th april... it was a wonderful day... a very wonderful one... yes... it's replaying in my mind now... what a wonderful world... *drifts off to lalaland i miss you........

can't sleep...

2004-05-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

i feel weak... i feel tired... yet my eyes refuse to shut... i had 7 cups of coffee this morning... curse the free flow coffee at macs... curse myself for drinking that many cups of coffee... my stomach's all queasy and i feel sick... -groan- ate seoul garden yesterday... piled my plate with a mountain of black pepper beef, bulgolgi beef and chicken, lotsa vege and 3 eggs... ate till not a single grain of rice can enter my stomach anymore... 'Troy' is a nice show... but we had to sit front row, so my neck ended up a little stiff... watched the show till 3am, then went to liang fark's place to slack... slept an hour plus there... then i left... so near yet so far... waited from 8 to 1030... no reply so i had to leave... tot could see you and be a breakfast deliveryman today, but have to wait till tml to see you... no worries, it's fine with me... i need to puke, the coffee's churning in my stomach... i miss you...

pain!!!

2004-05-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday didn't blog, so maybe today's entry might be quite long... muahahaha... right now, i'm listening to "box of sharp objects" by The Used... not bad a song actually... muahaha...

anyway, yesterday was not too bad... school ended at 1+, then a group of us went over to weixian's house to play some soccer game... haha... i sucked at it... keep pressing 'cross' when supposed to press 'shoot'... muahaha... so in the end nv score any goal and lost in penalty shootout to jion kiang... bloody ass... wahahaha... went back to school to run 4by4 finals then... only 4 teams participated, and i'm proud to say that my team won with an ultra comfortable lead of like 12seconds? muahahaha!!!! it was a team event, and i thank my mates for establishing their own leads... wahahaha... however, i sustained a damn big blister on my left feet, then very pain...it happened cos i was wearing eze's spikes, which was a size bigger than mine, without socks on somemore... smart boy... mahahahaha!!!!

after the race, i had to go play intercon... the match was quite shitty lah... haha... my regular partner wasn't there, so i ended up partnering my team manager, who, at 40-50yrs, didn't really have the speed and strength, so we played a very contrasting style, and of course, we didn't win... after that, went home and slept after dinner and bath... muahahaha....

today, supposed to meet kitty at the mrt, but i overslept and so cannot make it... what an idiot of me... then i had to wear the half spoilt slippers to school somemore... urgh... the strap kept coming out... haha... then halfway through school, the strap actually snapped!!! tamade... haha... and my blister started bleeding for no reason too... urgh... went to pe office to get my feet patched up and some scotch tape to mend my shoes... miss lim was so kind!!! she wanted to lend me her slippers!!! but the size too small... then mr fauzi lent me his pair!!! wahahaha... so nice arh the pe teachers!!! muahahaha... must treat them dinner when i graduate... wahahha....by right today supposed to train my 400m one, but when my feet is in such a condition, cannot help it lah... haiz... hopefully the blister heal by sunday lor, then at least i can train on monday... muahahaha...

jianwei had to listen to my neurotic and lunatic whims during our self-declared break time... wahahaha... but i really dunno what to do... haiz... anyway, spent a total of 3hrs in the library, half sleeping and half reading calvin and hobbes... i want calvin's hairstyle!!! he's damn cute can?! my alter-ego... STUPENDOUS MAN and SPACEMAN SPIFF!!! wahahaha.... Paul Gauguin asked "whence do we come? What are we? Where are we going?" Well, i don't know bout anyone else but i came from school and i'm the nicest guy on earth and i'm going to continue with this entry before going to nap... wahahahaha!!!

YAY!!! tml i'll be going to sentosa with the farks!!! wahhaha... it's liang fark's birthday today! so he celebrating tml... muahahaha... the sand, sun and sea!!! wee!!! but the thing's at 4plus, so a bit funny... will be watching 'troy' tml too... wahahaha... midnight show!!! skippitty dee doo whap doo wah!!!

where are you? i miss you a lot... haven't really been around you lately... sigh... *scratch

comments? tagboard please...

2004-05-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

i think my blog's a little screwed up... dunno why... anyway, i think can't paste comments, but there's still the tagboard k? so any comments please use the tagboard... sorry for the inconvenience and my thanks for your cooperation! muahahaha...

wahahahaha...

2004-05-12T19:53:00.000+08:00

today, was a short day at school... however, it was a long day for me... went to support the yjc girls' basketball team, cos my entire class wanted to go, so boh pian... yj lost to sajc by around 20 points i think, didn't really keep track of the score... anyway, stupid chong tak, say my group nv cheer... i personally cheered till my voice kanasai k?! wah lau eh... cannot take it arh...

anyway, today's 4 by 100m heats got cancelled, cos only 7 teams join, then run on sports day... mahahaa.... AND, today's damn sickening!!! i just found out that alex lim chiam lek and amritpal singh sidhu also gonna get 3 golds! so in the end most prob will have 3 joint-individual champions, provided i win my 400m... urgh... at first, when i knew about it, i was like damn sian ready, cos i really wanted to get the indiv trophy... but then, all good things must share, so yah, since they did well in their events, they deserved their share of the trophy, just like i deserve it if i did well... =) that's sportsmanship at its greatest... muahahaha!!! also, how often is it that yjc has 3 joint-indiv champs? i think it's gonna be the first time, all the more special it would be!!! i'll just concentrate on my event for now, that's all i can do... i'll train... i have one more week... i can try to rewrite the 400m record set by subaish... 52.1 seconds... i know it's an extremely tough thing to do, but God willing, and me willing to give my best, it might just be remotely possible... (keong clenches his fists in determination)

God, i hope i'll have your blessing for the race next wednesday.... kitty, you'll support me too right? =) *scratch

basket case

2004-05-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

BASKET CASE!!!!

do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once?
i am one of those
melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone
no doubt about it

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think i'm cracking up
and am i just paranoid
or am i stoned?!

RARH!!!

2004-05-11T19:09:00.000+08:00

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!! dammit... today was a horrible day, with a capital 'H'!!! 1) today's weather is freaking hot... even just standing still, i'll be perspiring buckets... 2) i got back my maths c results... 11%... just what the hell lor... 3) had to stand for maths tut cos i didn't prepare tutorial... 4) suddenly felt damn tired and had to struggle through chem prac... 5) nizam won't let me run anchor, and from 3rd runner, i got relegated to starter, just because "chek got learn the technic right?"... what bout nizam? whatever they... 6) i got back my chem results as well... 23%... 7) i was damn quiet when kitty was damn hyper... sorry kitty, i was really tired out already... i wished i could be hyper a bit, i tried... sorry if i seem quiet too while walking to the mrt station k? anyway... back to ranting... 8) i fell asleep on the bus and ended up in serangoon... i live in ang mo kio... 9) rammed into the lift door... not unlike daryl... 10) tripped while climbing the stairs... 11) dropped my phone on the floor...

that's it man... maybe i should just sit here beside the computer and not do anything... maybe nothing bad will then happen to me then... thinking back, the only good times today were when i saw U... *scratch

ooohhh... if only....

2004-05-11T12:23:00.000+08:00

if only i had a voice like josh groban's... groban, gorban, whatever... u know who lah... muahahaha....

phoenix rising...

2004-05-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

i'm back home! so tired today... there were heats today, and kitty took part in 100m girls'!!! though she came up short of her expectations, i think it's rather alright... as long as u tried ur best kitty!!! i've said what i needed to in the sms... yep, dun be upset with today, there's still tml to live for! chin up! i'll always be behind you k?! always!!! i promise! cross my heart! i'm just happy that i can be there for you!! =)

anyway, i ran 400m heats today... was damn gan cheong... dunno why too... perhaps was cos i know that i haven't been training and that the competitions gonna be quite tight? anyway, i just wanted to win it... it's not just to get lane 4 again for the finals on sports day, i ran it for you... seeing u upset is not something i wish to see... i just wanted to do something, to cheer u up... and so i ran more than my best... to give u something to smile about... =) i'll do anything, as long as you'll be happy =D *love *scratch

what's wrong with everything?!?!

2004-05-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

so here i am in the library... slacking my life away... so bored that i've been reduced to playing solitaire on this God-forsakened com... this laptop really cannot make it man... friendster's having problems, AGAIN... my tagboard's "temporarily" dead, though it has been that way since saturday, or was it friday? now even my memory's failing me... sooner or later, i'll even forget who i am... interesting, isn't it? haha... what rarbeesh...

anyway, i just got informed by mrs george that i'll have to stand on the podium on sports day to swear the "athletes' oath" and thus, help start off sports day... it's a privilege, an honour... but it's so stressing to do so too! imagine the whole blardy school staring at you while u read that... and i better have a copy of the oath incase i forget what to say and start panicking like ants on the wok, pot, whatever... haha... arh!!!!!

kitty!!!! *scratch *love

HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-05-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

THE KITTY INVADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha..i'm having a DAMN bad headache.. HOW??? hai... *rubs temples
HEY KEONG!!!!! see u at the station alright?? hahaha.. *love

tagboard!!!

2004-05-09T13:38:00.000+08:00

my tagboard's dead!!! boohoo!!! ngen ngen ngen!!!

LAO SAI!!!!!

2004-05-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

damn... never will i drink a litre of fruit juice at one go... tamade... dai hua until now my ass macam clean like dunno what... muahahaha!!! ok... enough of being disgusting... anyway, went back to yj to train today... my fitness level dropped like sai dropping into the toilet bowl lydat... oops... i forgot... ok... dropped like brick falling from the sky like that... today, yjc played against mi(millenia institute) in rugby... though yj lost, they played well, very well... and we behaved tons better than the whole-day-think-of-fighting-hooligan mi dogs... wahahaha.... well done yjc!!! lalala~~! shit, sorry, call of nature... *runs to the tiolet (spelling error intended)

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!!!!

2004-05-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

ngen ngen ngen!!! just sitting on my ass when i decided to blog... blog blog blog... WHAT DA HELL'S WRONG WITH ME?!?! urgh... anywayz... listening to 'Kurenai' now... there's a funeral downstairs and they're blasting hokkien songs... so i'm blasting X Japan to compete with them... come lah! wahahaha... the hokkien music really drives me nuts i tell you... urgh... anyway, going to school to train by my own now... nxt week got heats... wahahahaha.... i must win the 400m gold!!! then the individual trophy will be MINE!!! my preciousssssss!! they thievesss! they ssstole it from me... fat hobbitssss! my precioussss!!!! wahahaha... ARGH!!! I'M GOING NUTS!!!! HELP!!! HELP!!! THE WALL IS FALLING!!!! ARGH!!!

losing my voice and sanity

2004-05-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

wahaha... i rushed home to eat my soggy noodles ta pau-ed by my dad! haha... had my final paper today... chemistry... so bloody screwed i tell you... at least 65% of the entire chem paper is organic chem... and i didn't study organic chem... well done... haha... nvm... supervised self study, here i come!!!

had a match against jjc today... finally yjc won their first game... but they made me so angry i tell u... they played like shit can? wah lau eh... i tot i play 3rd singles then can sit back and relax... but they play until my match became the decider game... urgh... so disgusted...

anyway, after the match, i went to support ACJC!!! they were playing against ajc and though both went through to the second round, it's a matter of pride for both schools... sadly, ACJC lost narrowly to ajc... but what the heck? anyway, got to feel the AC spirit again!!! AWESOME!!! haha... miss the days when i was in AC... the team spirit and everything is really there... everybody gave their best and everybody supported... i personally shouted like crazy too... now my voice sounds hoarse... haha... hope i don't lose it tml... such team spirit is lacking in yjc... lacking in a lot of schools i would say... if AC wins the title, which will be quite hard (just being practical), i'll be there, singing 'ACS Forever'!!! i miss the days...

KITTY'S BACK!!! yay!!! haha... but she's tired... heh... who wouldn't be after a week of obs camp?! -kerbish- haha... *scratch

sigh

2004-05-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

yep, many things in life are unpredictable... but then again, let us just have the time of our lives regardless of the situation!!! wahahaha... suddenly i feel cacat... hey! but it's true! we should enjoy life to the fullest! if not why live? hmmm... *scratch

whatever lah huh, whatever.....

irritating!!!!!!

daps

you need chemistry...

addicted

rare blog opportunity...

PRELIMS OVER!!!

story

it's been long

i saw that!

*fartalogy

whassup?!?!?!

i'm nath, and i'm becoming ill...

regrets...

it's been a long time....

hoo-ah!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck x10^462304239784092

fuck it all

what to blog?

so wasted...

i tried to confuse...

changed....

wee~!

spasm....

urgh...

uh-huh...

hmm

ngen ngen ngen...

finally!

INVASION!!!!!!!!!

fucked up day...

damn...

ants on a frying pan!

make that VERY bored...

*amazed*

what are you fucking thinking?!

......

what to BLOG?!?!?!

euro's over!

Sephia~~~

long time no blog...

*groan

this is it...

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!

whatever happened to morality?

NGEN NGEN NGEN!!!!

no blog... no blog...

the 12 months!!!!

paint it all black...

move on?

last train home...

hmmm....

urgh...

what's your flavour?

interhouse soccer and..yeah....

this is kitty here.

nice dream

bloody irritants!!!

a tribute to you all brave warriors!

self-esteem...

i dunno what to name this...

on my own...

...

ideality?

hello there! have i seen u before?

THE RASMUSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i died in my dreams

bastardo...

i'll show you..

songs galore!!!

i buried myself alive...

tired*

just another blog...

bigshot...NOT!!!!

that feeling...

whassup?!?! hungry...

advert shit...

shout outs. *sick

USED...

damn...

amazed